The Problem About Asking For a Sign

We all want to know the perfect will for our lives. We all want to hear direct revelation about what God wants us to do, what is coming up, where he wants us to go and so on. Most of us, especially me, want a sign from God before I will move. Sometimes for me it is not enough to have a peace in my heart or sense God's leading. Lately I have been praying for direction in my life. Direction about foster care, direction to go to vegas and get pregnant again, and direction for other things. I have sensed some peace and direction in some of these areas but my prayers have been permeated with pleas for God to give me a direct sign, somewhat like a fleece like Gideon asked for. This morning, I was once again asking for a sign of direction and confirmation in my life when God directed me to a passage in John 20:27-29. Jesus is talking to Thomas and he says, "stop doubting and believe". "you have seen me thomas but blessed are those who believe and have not seen. All of a sudden God spoke to my spirit; are you going to just trust me and follow my gentle nudges or do you need a sign which will weaken your faith and my blessing in your life. WOW!!!! God does give us signs, but how much more blessing and stronger faith is reserved for us when we just learn to trust and not expect sign after sign. Jesus said to the crowd while he was on the earth. You want sign after sign, but these people still did not believe because they were the ones shouting crucify him and deserted him. Also in the Bible, God says that it is a wicked generation that always needs signs. God I want to trust you and not belittle your power in my life by always asking for a sign. Help me to trust you, and rather than asking for signs, learn how to recoqnize your voice and listen when you are speaking. My focus should be not looking for a sign but intimacy with Jesus to the point where I know when he is speaking and I know his voice